Buckets, balls and books

I let the balls drop. I was exhausted. My buckets were empty. So I set about to fill them back up again. It was hard.

My last post said I’d see you in a few months. That few months turned into seven.

So what happened?

I let the balls drop. I was exhausted. My buckets were empty. So I set about to fill them back up again.

I didn’t want to write about it at the time but I was in a difficult job and dealing with major health issues. I’m still dealing with those health issues but it’s currently under control. It took a long time though. I was running on empty and I still had to go on – to work the job that drained me, to apply for jobs and go to interviews even though I was exhausted, to deal with the rejection of not getting those jobs, to keep writing, to keep blogging, to keep socialising, to see specialists and doctors. It’s amazing how hard that is but I’m survived. Writing, music and books are what saved me. I wrote in my journal every day during this period, I blasted music and I devoured self-help books and books on meaning and philosophy. I also read a lot of Ask A Manager and listened to Good Life Project, Creative Penn, On Being and Secular Buddhism.

It was a slog and it sucked. But I just concentrated on putting one foot in front of the other and eventually everything slowly got better – I travelled to Japan and while I was there go a brand new job. I came back refreshed after my three week holiday, quit my job and moved into my new one. Then spend the last six months adjusting to it and I’m now finally comfortable enough to slowly pick up the balls I have dropped.


Travelling to Japan and eating amazing food helped me recover my creativity and energy.


It’s not perfect – I’m only writing around 500 to 1000 words a week at the moment, I can only walk not jog and my eating is a bit hit and miss. But I am getting there.

I’m still reading, listening and watching to fill my buckets. And now I’ll be slowly getting back into blogging which I’ve missed as I have read a lot of books this year and haven’t written about any of them!

If you’re still reading this – thank you for being awesome and taking the time.


Only saw ONE mecha the whole time I was in Japan. Anime lied to me!


5 thoughts on “Buckets, balls and books

  1. I’m so glad to hear you’re coming out the other side of a difficult year. Social media can really compound exhaustion with it’s relentless need for us to keep up. I took a break recently and it was the best thing I did. I have a more balanced outlook on it now.
    Your photos of Japan look amazing! All the best for a rewarding and enjoyable 2018!


  2. The road to recovery is a long one; I look forward to hearing about your journey. Take care of yourself, my lovely xx PS That mecha is awesome! I used to love playing One Must Fall which was basically Kickboxer with mechas 😀


  3. Hey Emma, trust you keep getting better. Wow what a 7 month to go through. Personally I’ve found quitting my job and caring for mum the best job I’ve ever had. All the best gor 2018 xx


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